Solstice Rebirth

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Winter Solstice 2009 – Just days left in the decade.
My momentum going into 2010 is amazing.
My spiritual practice is strong.
I’m writing a bunch.
I’m seeing a Life Coach.
I’m off my anxiety medication for the first time in 12 years.
I feel more grounded than I have in a long time.
I’m driving the Hugmobile once a week.
I see my family (including my glorious nephews) weekly.
I took a pleasure trip (non Burning Man or work) for the first time in ages.
I feel like I have the tools to stay in control of my thoughts.
I have everything I need to become who I am supposed to be.
Rather than make a New Years’ resolution, I am making a New Year’s presolution.
I want to enter the new decade raw.
So tonight I shaved my head and stripped the pink from my exterior.
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The last time it was my natural color was 6 years ago.
The last time my hair was this short, I was in my mother’s womb.

I feel like a spiritual infant – and this is my Solstice birth.
How much can I let go of my story? How much can I trust the Universe?
This Xmas I celebrate my personal savior – constantly being born from within.
Hallelujah.
Love more, fear less.
Float more, steer Less.
Merry Xmas, and a Happy New Year.

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Eggnography's 12 days of Xmas

It’s that time of year to be counting down the 12 days of wacky Styn-family traditions! Below is last year’s letter (and Santa Response.) For the all archives, check out Eggnography.com or the Eggnography Facebook page.

(letter & gift out on Xmas eve 2008)
Dear Santa,
The economic downturn has been tough on all of us. And while we’re not privy to your financial statements, the number of kids asking for ipods and cell phones can NOT be making things any easier for you.
But not to worry!
We have been tossing around some ideas and we think we have some rock-solid ideas to help you maximize profits and avoid any Elfin layoffs.

We’ve come up with 2 new revenue streams for you:

1) Leverage your good name.
(Not in a tacky way, of course.) We have a couple suggestions right off the bat and have initiated talks with Procter and Gamble (for a “Candy Cane” scented line of hair and beard grooming products) as well as the Nestle corporation (see prototype candy packaging attached to this note.)

2) Hire out the Elf workforce during the off season.
There are hundreds of options, but the obvious one to start with are as stunt men for children (duh! Maybe you are already doing this?) We also have some interested parties who would like to get started on some miniature re-enactments of Civil War battles.

Look, we love you and don’t mean to tell you how to do your business. But times are tough and we hate to see you (or any Elf families) suffer.

Humbly,
Jimmy & Johnny
yummy

AWESOME Reply from Mom…er…Santa after the cut
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Eggnography’s 12 days of Xmas

It’s that time of year to be counting down the 12 days of wacky Styn-family traditions! Below is last year’s letter (and Santa Response.) For the all archives, check out Eggnography.com or the Eggnography Facebook page.

(letter & gift out on Xmas eve 2008)
Dear Santa,
The economic downturn has been tough on all of us. And while we’re not privy to your financial statements, the number of kids asking for ipods and cell phones can NOT be making things any easier for you.
But not to worry!
We have been tossing around some ideas and we think we have some rock-solid ideas to help you maximize profits and avoid any Elfin layoffs.

We’ve come up with 2 new revenue streams for you:

1) Leverage your good name.
(Not in a tacky way, of course.) We have a couple suggestions right off the bat and have initiated talks with Procter and Gamble (for a “Candy Cane” scented line of hair and beard grooming products) as well as the Nestle corporation (see prototype candy packaging attached to this note.)

2) Hire out the Elf workforce during the off season.
There are hundreds of options, but the obvious one to start with are as stunt men for children (duh! Maybe you are already doing this?) We also have some interested parties who would like to get started on some miniature re-enactments of Civil War battles.

Look, we love you and don’t mean to tell you how to do your business. But times are tough and we hate to see you (or any Elf families) suffer.

Humbly,
Jimmy & Johnny
yummy

AWESOME Reply from Mom…er…Santa after the cut
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100,000 points of light

'100,000 points of light'  stance (at Tulum)
Yesterday, during my coaching session, Karpo asked me to visualize doing HugNation to an audience of 100,000.
(Normally there are around 20 people there.)
It was a powerful feeling.
With twenty, I sense the participants as glowing dots distributed around the globe. I see little outposts of love scattered around the world – fighting back the darkness.
Radio towers sending out concentric circles – slowly fading as they eventually circle the planet and connect.
But 100,000 felt different.
It made the world feel smaller.
It made the outposts into cities.
And instead of fighting back the dark, they are actively spreading the light.
Not out of any missionary zealotry, but because it cannot be helped.

This is how my world view has shifted.
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Float More

“Go with the Flow” is an oft misunderstood phrase.
It doesn’t mean to do what others’ around are doing. Or to avoid conflict.
It is not passiveness.
On the contrary, the Flow is universal strength.
Water is a perfect example of this.
A body of water will yield to the touch and a droplet will take the path of least resistance.
But do not confuse this willingness to compromise for weakness. If you have ever stood on the edge of the Grand Canyon, you have witnessed the immense power of water.
I use the phrase “Float more, steer less.” to remind myself of this principle.
Some people confuse this with apathy or laziness.
Not so.
Floating doesn’t meat motionless. Floating means that your direction comes from a place much bigger than you.
Rather than picking a destination and powering your way through every obstacle to get there, you go deep and feel the direction that you are being pulled. Then swim in that direction.
You still use effort. You still work hard. You just do so in the direction of universal flow. And so go much farther with much less effort.
To do this, you need to let go of the belief that you know what the best outcome is.
This is massive.
Way too often we claw our way towards an objective. We bite, scratch, and step on heads to get the promotion, parking place, or position we believe we need to be content.
There is a HUGE difference between wanting to be content and wanting to get what you believe will make you content.
I would argue this is one of the core challenges our culture faces.
This disconnect is the very basis of marketing and the advertising-based culture we are submerged in every day.
Floating can also take FAR more courage than swimming towards traditional goals. Because who is to say that the cosmic current takes you in the direction of a wife, kids and picket fence?
You can always force your way, paddling and splashing against the flow. This is the situation with so many gay people pressured to live in the closet.
After Burning man, I was living in a webcam house and intentionally attacking all the false currents I could find. The socialization pressures to dress a certain way or pursue a certain path or keep certain parts of your life private.
In today’s world of twitter and status updates, it does not seem so revolutionary. But in 2000, living transparently online was a novelty left to camgirls.
I moved in 5 members of my Burning Man camp to TheRealHouse.com and we made living transparently into an art project.
At the same time “WeLiveInPublic” was happening in New York with a much bigger budget and with much more traditional “success.”
One thing we learned quickly was how powerfully oppressed most of us are about our sexuality.
Merely speaking openly about sex can be seen as subversive. So to allow one’s sex life to be viewed, discussed, and celebrated – well, that was too much for most.
I was told “Sex is sacred and therefore should be private.”
But this doesn’t make any sense to me.
Religion is sacred. Yet we make worship into a public event every Sunday. (You could easily argue that what we see in many of these churches is far from sacred – but that is a separate point.)
My open sexuality at the time brought me lots of detractors. I had won a Webby award the year before and had my share of “fans.” But I “went too far,” many said.
I kept coming back to “float more.”
Maybe it was *because* of all the obstacles, but I felt compelled to continue in this risque direction. Our puritanical oppression was not a wall to flow around, but a jagged rock that needed to be softened.
The status quo wanted us to swim (fully clothed) in the direction of traditional morality and levels of public sharing.
But the cosmic flow pulled in the other direction. My house-mates and I let the universe steer and started paddling in the direction of the flow.
It is during those times of flow when everything seems to come together. You are in the right place at the right time. You meet the right people. synchronicity follows you everywhere.
It was during one of those times that the idea of “Globalgasm” came to be.

*to be continued*