The lessons of Grandpa, Gratitude, and Gifting have become a way of life for me. An I am starting to see the affect of these ideas on my life and in the world
‎Pink Heart, my Burning Man camp, is making an appearance at events on boths coasts in the coming months. And next month 1st Saturdays SAN FRANCISCO CHAPTER will host its first event – while we host ours in San Diego.

I am seeing the ripple effects of Love… of “Selfish Service”…and everything I put into the TEDx talk…actually HAPPENING. My eyes are filled with tears and my heart is soaring.
I hope you enjoy.
And if it touches you, please share with a friend, a local reporter, and everyone that could smile more and be more in the world.

Past Blast

Just found an old box of photos and journals from when I was 20-23 years old. That was the chapter where I first tried drugs. It was truly an experimental phase – I practically had a lab coat.

It was also right after my profound experience on a Turkish Mountaintop. I just found a list of “Beliefs” I wrote down and am blown away by how little has changed.

1) The experience of living is the ultimate miracle.
2) The “object” is to experience the world as intimately as possible. As free from socialization as possible. With a child’s eyes…with wonder and excitement.
3) Following you mind, not steering it, can be rich.
4) People are infinitely more similar than different. And this “sameness” is the spiritual link between all living creatures/things.
5)Optimism, wit, and open-mindedness are more important than intellect.

(There are also some sexual observations…but I’m keeping those private for now.)

“Righteous Prick” Hug Nation Sept 11, 2012

1st Hug post-Burning Man

It is long video, and it is deep…but I came back from Burning Man with a more powerful vision than ever before. We are all Messiahs. Our Heroes Journey is to greet each task at hand by being Present – with Integrity – aligned with Love.

I step into a new chapter of power. I open to a new level of vulnerability.  I Love you.

Includes reflections on:
Grandpa Caleb (GrandpaCaleb.com), Pupose, Westboro Baptists, Burning Man Sexual Assault, & living our Purpose.

“Be Present. Have Integrity. Align with Love.”

Wedding photos by Ben Indyck and Andy Cooper

Defending What Matters

(posted in Burning Man Blog)

Black Rock City is the greatest city in the world.
But every city has assholes. And thiefs. And rapists.

YES, we should continue to assume that we are dealing with the 99.9% of the city that is AMAZING, but be aware that there are dark spots out there among all the light

You can no longer pretend that there are no bikes stolen at Burning Man – you have to use a lock.
And we can longer pretend that there is no Sexual Assault at Burning Man – you have to use good judgement, look out for one another…AND speak up when somebody crosses the line.

There is an important conversation going on on ePlaya about the challenges and need for Rape Kits & other preparations in Black Rock City.

In this week’s Hug Nation (“Back From Burning Man”) broadcast, I discussed my own camp’s episode this year which involved a camp mate who crossed the line and ended up leaving in cuffs.

What we create within the Walls of BRC is sacred. We need to acknowledge the darkness as it creeps in and banish it with light. Admitting that Burning Man is not a perfect Shangri La is not a failure…it is a necessary step required to defend our borders and create even safer spaces for expression, creation, and Love.

Life in Overdrive

Screen shot 2012-09-15 at 5.06.25 PM

I have a cameo in this fun BM 2012 video: http://youtu.be/ArReDU84GhI (at 0:22)

Featured in this fun podcast (at 12:50): http://borealismeditation.blogspot.com/2012/09/peace-love-and-verbal-abuse-borealis.html

“The Pink Path” helped cheer up a bad day: http://artfulartsyamy.blogspot.com/2012/09/how-to-get-over-your-bad-days.html

Doing 3 min on stage here: http://www.lovestockfestival.com

The Hugmobile sighting in an article on SD Canyons. http://www.teawithlemon.com/2012/09/greentech-geek-those-damn-canyons.html

My pic of my family used in Craiglist Scam (and in the New York Times) http://www.nytimes.com/2012/09/15/nyregion/the-nanny-scam.html?_r=1&hp (follow up story on my family coming out next week)

photo credit in NYT


I have been in a profound place since Burning Man. Actually “place”is the wrong word. “Trajectory”, perhaps….since there is so much movement.?… But, no, it is not linear… so “”vortex” perhaps?

I have been in a profound vortex since returning from Burning Man. The intensity may fade, but I feel changed.

I hope it means our relationship will deepen, but I recognize that in some cases that will not be the case. If I start to sound preachy or make you want to roll your eyes, I totally understand. We will connect again. I am grateful for the steps we walked together on the path. I am simply being called to act from a different place now. Feel free to unfriend me. Or lurk. It’s all good. 🙂

I also recognize that I am beginning to connect with more people than my memory can keep track of. My ego is embarrassed when I don’t remember – but I hope you know (and feel) that my heart is present when we are together. I hope you will forgive the cellular limitations of my mind and accept the embrace of my heart…even if we need to meet a 2nd or 3rd time.

I’m also finding myself – for the first time – in the position of possibly missing digital replies. With my phone and computer, I try to stay on top of things. I try to ‘like’ and reply and keep the connections alive. But the Facebook platform makes it challenging at times to audit the past and make sure that I have responded to everything that I wanted to (as opposed to email.)
If you have ever ask a question or say something that you want a response to, feel free to follow up in an email after a day or 2. I am walking step by step, and I will do my best.

I continue to believe in the power of these digital tools of connection (like Facebook) – and remain aware of their functionality limitations & potential to stunt our physical connections and expressions. That being said, the power to be connected is amazing. I hope you will stay connected and encourage your open hearted (or ‘seeking to be more-open hearted’) friends to SUBSCRIBE to my blog, Facebook feed, YouTube, G+, Twitter, or preferred tool (links in comments.) I’m sure there are many more great tools, and I will embrace them as they make sense to me. Love *is* being transferred digitally. The ripples are happening.

Finally, even though I may sound like I’m taking myself WAY too seriously, I assure you, I am floating lightly. I am deep in my sense of play, HIGHLY aware of my flaws, and allowing love, light & laughter to lead me.

In Service-
– John / Halcyon / Commander Happypants / Cocky Bastard / Life Student / Righteous Prick / Shadrach /

p.s. Not sure how long this feeling will last. If this chapter is over tomorrow, feel free to tease me about it. Or help me back on track. Either way, thanks for coming on the ride.

Shadrach photo by Aaron Dressin


“Never Forget” 9/11/12

Yes, remember those who died. But you should always remember those that died. Death is unanimous and it is through memory that we all live eternal. But a car crash is no less painful than a building crash. Whether at the hands of misguided souls drunk on booze or ideaology, lives end prematurely every day.

Innocent death resulting from war is simply a part of the violent, natural order of things. If there is too much tension, a system tries to relieve it. Volcanoes, tectonic plates shifting to cause earthquakes, droughts & resulting famines… and human cruelty/oppression & revolt. It is as how it has always been.

In the modern world, it is hard to make differentiation between war and terrorism. If we are to claim that 9/11 deaths are the result of Terrorism, how can we not accept the same title for the innocent deaths at our hands in the vague “war” that followed.

That doesn’t mean we should not remember this day. We should meditate on the tragedy and remember those lost. But don’t get bogged down in the official story vs. conspiracy theory. The most important thing that should never forget is what Martin Luthor King spoke long ago. That, “Hate cannot drive out darkness, only Love can do that.”

-Halcyon 9.11.12

p.s. a couple quotes that are rattling in my head today:

“It’s not a matter of whether the war is not real, or if it is, Victory is not possible. The war is not meant to be won, it is meant to be continuous. Hierarchical society is only possible on the basis of poverty and ignorance. This new version is the past and no different past can ever have existed. In principle the war effort is always planned to keep society on the brink of starvation. The war is waged by the ruling group against its own subjects and its object is not the victory over either Eurasia or East Asia but to keep the very structure of society intact.”
-George Orwell

“The towers are gone now, reduced to bloody rubble, along with all hopes for Peace in Our Time, in the United States or any other country. Make no mistake about it: We are At War now — with somebody — and we will stay At War with that mysterious Enemy for the rest of our lives.”
-Hunter S. Thompson