A lifetime ago, I explored the frontier of webcam technology and “digital intimacy”.
I dealt with my adolescent insecurity by cultivating a beefcake following.
The “Teacosy” community was full of pretty amazing people and lead to CitizenX.com.
But sometimes it was ridiculous.
(actual transcript, names changed):
[NewbieOne] DON’T YOU ALL THINK HE IS HOT?!
[NewbieTwo] is that him for real
[NewbieTwo] i thought the pic was sooooooooooo sexy
[NewbieOne] YEAH, I GUESS
[NewbieThree] i don’t see anything happening
[NewbieOne] HE IS SO SEXY
[NewbieTwo] can i get some
[NewbieOne] ME TOO!
[NewbieTwo] me first
[NewbieOne] WE’LL TAG TEAM HIM
[NewbieOne] I BET HE WOULD LIKE THAT
[NewbieTwo] i don’t see anything right now
[NewbieTwo] he would love it
[NewbieOne] HE’S JUST SITTING THERE
[NewbieOne] LOOKIN ALL GOOD 🙂
[NewbieThree] he sees what we say, right?
[NewbieTwo] looking sexy
[NewbieTwo] not sure
[NewbieOne] HEY HALCYON! CAN YOU SEE WHAT WE ARE WRITING?
[NewbieTwo] your soooooooooo crazy
[NewbieOne] I LOVE IT!
[NewbieOne] I GUESS HE CAN…I DON’T KNOW
[NewbieTwo] me either
[NewbieTwo] i would rape him….*(grins)*
[NewbieOne] NOW, HOW MANY GUYS DO YOU KNOW THAT COULD LOOK GOOD IN A PINK HAT!?
[NewbieOne] HE’S HOT!
[NewbieOne] YUMMY YUM YUM
[NewbieTwo] you betta believe it
[NewbieTwo] so where is this sexy man’s lady….if he don’t have one i will be that for him….*(grins)*
[NewbieThree] he looks like he’s in class or something!
[NewbieTwo] it don’t even matter i would sex him up in class lol
It is so strange to look back at those moments. Those first digital connections. Reaching out through the brand new world wide web for affirmation and connection.
Tonight I am thinking of Jan. Jan created teacost.net, was a longtime supporter (and sometimes critic), and a beautiful person. I used to wonder if we would ever meet, but she died. I hope that those digital connections brought some love and smiles to her when she was alive. As long as there is archive.org, I will forever be dancing late at night, in a towel, for Jan.