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My Top 10 Odd & Offensive Achievements

Dec 7 will be the 15 year anniversary of my first domain name registration (Prehensile.com). Here are a few of my highlights along the way…

1) I am was the #3 result for “assless chaps” on Google Image Search.
Assless Chaps

2) I am the box model for Splat! “Fetish Pink” hair dye.
resume now says: "Pink Hair Model"

3) Sam Donaldson said “Get a load of that guy!…what an ego!” about me at the 2001 Webby Awards. (NOTE: I was wearing white assless chaps at the time. Seriously.)

4) I modeled for the cover packaging of several Tantus Silicone dildo models. (non-explicit.)

5) I Organized a number of adult stars to do a “Pink Aid” fund raiser & DVD after Hurricane Katrina. Habitat for Humanity would not accept the $, so we gave it to the brand new Burners without Borders. (*NSFW)

6) I shared the NBC.com homepage with Obama on Inauguration day.
NBC.com homepage

7) While living in a webcam house, MTV followed me around for a week and did a 30 min doc about my projects called, “Naked on the Net.”

8 ) I was a contestant on an Adult Pay-Per-View reality show filmed in Jamaica. (I was booted for impotence. Seriously.)

9) Had my long hair cut off on a daytime Talk Show by Danny Bonneducci, Dick Clark, and Mario Lopez. (Mario used my hair as a horse’s mane and galloped around the stage. Seriously.)

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10) I was the poster boy for the Facebook precursor, “CollegeClub.com.” My face was on plastic cups, posters, stickers given out on campuses all over the country.

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And here’s a video of me explaining them in a little more detail during HugNation Happy Hour:

Float More

“Go with the Flow” is an oft misunderstood phrase.
It doesn’t mean to do what others’ around are doing. Or to avoid conflict.
It is not passiveness.
On the contrary, the Flow is universal strength.
Water is a perfect example of this.
A body of water will yield to the touch and a droplet will take the path of least resistance.
But do not confuse this willingness to compromise for weakness. If you have ever stood on the edge of the Grand Canyon, you have witnessed the immense power of water.
I use the phrase “Float more, steer less.” to remind myself of this principle.
Some people confuse this with apathy or laziness.
Not so.
Floating doesn’t meat motionless. Floating means that your direction comes from a place much bigger than you.
Rather than picking a destination and powering your way through every obstacle to get there, you go deep and feel the direction that you are being pulled. Then swim in that direction.
You still use effort. You still work hard. You just do so in the direction of universal flow. And so go much farther with much less effort.
To do this, you need to let go of the belief that you know what the best outcome is.
This is massive.
Way too often we claw our way towards an objective. We bite, scratch, and step on heads to get the promotion, parking place, or position we believe we need to be content.
There is a HUGE difference between wanting to be content and wanting to get what you believe will make you content.
I would argue this is one of the core challenges our culture faces.
This disconnect is the very basis of marketing and the advertising-based culture we are submerged in every day.
Floating can also take FAR more courage than swimming towards traditional goals. Because who is to say that the cosmic current takes you in the direction of a wife, kids and picket fence?
You can always force your way, paddling and splashing against the flow. This is the situation with so many gay people pressured to live in the closet.
After Burning man, I was living in a webcam house and intentionally attacking all the false currents I could find. The socialization pressures to dress a certain way or pursue a certain path or keep certain parts of your life private.
In today’s world of twitter and status updates, it does not seem so revolutionary. But in 2000, living transparently online was a novelty left to camgirls.
I moved in 5 members of my Burning Man camp to TheRealHouse.com and we made living transparently into an art project.
At the same time “WeLiveInPublic” was happening in New York with a much bigger budget and with much more traditional “success.”
One thing we learned quickly was how powerfully oppressed most of us are about our sexuality.
Merely speaking openly about sex can be seen as subversive. So to allow one’s sex life to be viewed, discussed, and celebrated – well, that was too much for most.
I was told “Sex is sacred and therefore should be private.”
But this doesn’t make any sense to me.
Religion is sacred. Yet we make worship into a public event every Sunday. (You could easily argue that what we see in many of these churches is far from sacred – but that is a separate point.)
My open sexuality at the time brought me lots of detractors. I had won a Webby award the year before and had my share of “fans.” But I “went too far,” many said.
I kept coming back to “float more.”
Maybe it was *because* of all the obstacles, but I felt compelled to continue in this risque direction. Our puritanical oppression was not a wall to flow around, but a jagged rock that needed to be softened.
The status quo wanted us to swim (fully clothed) in the direction of traditional morality and levels of public sharing.
But the cosmic flow pulled in the other direction. My house-mates and I let the universe steer and started paddling in the direction of the flow.
It is during those times of flow when everything seems to come together. You are in the right place at the right time. You meet the right people. synchronicity follows you everywhere.
It was during one of those times that the idea of “Globalgasm” came to be.

*to be continued*

Permanent Record

naked ambition
naked ambition

A friend took a picture of her TV & let me know that I appear in a pay-per-view show about the book, “Naked Ambition.” (I’m also in the book of that name. Neither show me naked.)

It is not the only pay-per-view appearance I made during that chapter of my life.

It’s an interesting side effect to the digital age – what we do today, we are accountable for forever.

Google is the new “permanent record.”

naked ambition
naked ambition

Oh my god! It’s Jesus!

I’m going to see Jesus tonight.

Jesus Christ, Superstar, that is. I saw the movie recently and enjoyed it far more than I expected. Tonight is the play.

I’ve been thinking alot lately about the religious part of me and the not-quite-family-friendly part of me.

As HugNation got popular last year, I downplayed my adult projects and deleted links. I still do work for an adult client, but I removed the digital connections between my Hug Life and and my Smut World.

Of course, in a world of google and archive.org, that is rather silly undertaking.

I wonder if maybe this year I’ll find a better balance between the two. Or an integration. Or an eradication.

I was listening to a spiritual lecture where they said, god/the universe/etc. wants you right now. As is.
So as I offer myself to the universe, perhaps it is silly to think that my purpose as a tool of the universe is somehow *outside* of the adult world I’ve been a part of. Perhaps I should stop trying to close the door behind me and start seeing it as a part of my congregation. (We all have a congregation. And we all spread our message, whether we like it or not.)

When I did the Hug Tour, I was pleasantly surprised at the attendance from colleagues in the adult world. It suppose it goes back to what I say every week at Hug Nation: Beneath the thoughts and beliefs of our ego minds, we are all PEOPLE. Normally, I am talking about political and religious differences…but maybe I should address “morality” differences, too.

We can all love more. We can all fear less.

And for every one of us that does that …even at the smallest degree …and regardless of where we are starting from …the world is made a better place.

Oh my god! It's Jesus!

I’m going to see Jesus tonight.

Jesus Christ, Superstar, that is. I saw the movie recently and enjoyed it far more than I expected. Tonight is the play.

I’ve been thinking alot lately about the religious part of me and the not-quite-family-friendly part of me.

As HugNation got popular last year, I downplayed my adult projects and deleted links. I still do work for an adult client, but I removed the digital connections between my Hug Life and and my Smut World.

Of course, in a world of google and archive.org, that is rather silly undertaking.

I wonder if maybe this year I’ll find a better balance between the two. Or an integration. Or an eradication.

I was listening to a spiritual lecture where they said, god/the universe/etc. wants you right now. As is.
So as I offer myself to the universe, perhaps it is silly to think that my purpose as a tool of the universe is somehow *outside* of the adult world I’ve been a part of. Perhaps I should stop trying to close the door behind me and start seeing it as a part of my congregation. (We all have a congregation. And we all spread our message, whether we like it or not.)

When I did the Hug Tour, I was pleasantly surprised at the attendance from colleagues in the adult world. It suppose it goes back to what I say every week at Hug Nation: Beneath the thoughts and beliefs of our ego minds, we are all PEOPLE. Normally, I am talking about political and religious differences…but maybe I should address “morality” differences, too.

We can all love more. We can all fear less.

And for every one of us that does that …even at the smallest degree …and regardless of where we are starting from …the world is made a better place.

My Ass Was Blurred on MTV

*I’m going to start posting some of my favorite Prehensile.com Tales here to add them to my WordPress database. **

I was one of the subjects of an MTV documentary called “Sex2K: Naked on the Web.”

Background:

In Jan of 2001, I was contacted by MTV News and Docs division. They were looking for people to film in a show about sex online. I told them about Globalgasm (which had JUST started) and they started drooling.

Filming

They flew out and filmed for a day. After meeting us, they altered the “script” of the show to be more focused on us.

Then they flew out and followed us with cameras for 4 days. They filmed a party at our house. Fire dancing friends. A night out at a club. Daily Life. Lots of interviews with me and the housemates. And two Globalgasm nights.

FYI: Having an MTV film crew entourage follow you to your favorite dance club can be a surreal treat.

The documentary was originally supposed to air in June 2001. It was postponed, then 9-11 happened, then postponed again.

The original version of the show was rejected by the MTV standards committee. MTV has been humbled by lawsuits over the last year and was afraid that the sex-positive message was dangerous to broadcast to children.

The director told me, “It was perfect for HBO’s ‘RealSex’…unfortunately, much of MTVs audience is 13-18.”

The director shot additional footage and re-edited the show to show more of the negative consequences to being naked online. They blurred out all our URLs so kids couldn’t find our sites. They removed the scenes of fire dancing. They even altered the audio so you didn’t hear us say “globalgasm” out loud. As one person commented, “it sounded like you were saying, “Gulpgasm.”

The new version of the show was scheduled for June, then finally aired on July 4th 2002.

The Show

Overall I was pleased with the show. We were the center of three basic story lines and then miscellaneous commentary by “internet users.”

There was 7 minutes of me, Globalgasm, and TheRealHouse.

Aside from the fact that they kinda played up the “Hal and his Harem” angle, I thought those 7 minutes were awesome. The other stuff was…predictably lame. The person who got the worst out of the deal was “Adam” the voyeur. He had a pet pig, and they attached an image or sound of a squealing pig to most of his commentary. He was clearly made out to be the stooge (and it made his criticism of us sound weak).

The ending was misleading and made it look like the projects are over. Considering the pressure from MTVs lawyers,however, this editing decision makes sense.

In my mind, the show ends when I say, “I have hope for the world.” And NOT when Leilani, in her born-again enthusisam, accuses her ex-housemates of being weird and crazy. At least the show put her comments in perspective when they put text on the screen saying that she left the house and “found god.”

My favorite part was a 6 spilt-screen scene. My head in interview jumps from screen to screen as scenes of sexiness play in the other 5 screens.

“I recognize that living like this is not normal…People email us and say, ‘sex is something that should be private and sacred!’ Wha?! Those are two different things ‘private’ and ‘sacred.’ Church is sacred, and its not private. It is too bad that things that are sacred, meaning that they are core to our existence, should be hidden and shameful.”

Did I say that? Right on!!

Twenty years ago I remember telling my cable company, “I want my MTV.” I had no idea they would someday want me, too.